on-topic, tho possibly dry

Hey, so LAST year – one month & change ago – I started this blog as a daily writing project. I made entries 15 out of 24 days… a reasonable amount, as far as habit-encouragement goes. But no — in August, all writing ceases until February. Coinciding neatly with daughter A’s train wreck of an […]

not habitforming, but i want to store it anyway…

In a recent Elle, there’s a review/opinion piece by Miranda Purves titled, “The Awful Truth.” And it’s a nice enough article, but I want to keep this quote from her quoting Rachel Cusk’s memoir A Life’s Work: “The crying has stopped,” Cusk writes of her daughter’s colic. “She has survived the first pain of existence […]

think: neither pushing nor pulling but floating…

“Tibetan meditation master Chogyam Trungpa Rinpoche describes the quality of enriching as being “like a tree which stands constantly still, day and night, day and night, day and night; and finally it grows and produces fruit.” So here, enriching means something like working with the situations that come to you on moment to moment basis, […]

storing insights for later

While wandering the w.w.w to look for the Pomodoro Technique (ah, the web — so suited for digression, so inappropriate for my tired state of mind) I ran into this: “So, what is motivation? Let’s take one step at a time. Motivation is made up of two factors: personal structure – meaning values and principles […]

small steps (forward)?

I /have/ found a ‘pull’– weekly planning. I sat down yesterday to sort thru the week ahead, bc I’ve been feeling on the edge of losing stuff/getting blindsided. Turns out I’d missed two full weeks! I feel better, so I come back. Habit-forming.

Aha moment: Meditation time seems the same as rumination time 90% of my practice. Rumination, I’ve learned, is pointless. Ergo… . Hard to feel a ‘pull’ when that’s the case.

god only knows…

…my brain is full of Pet Sounds… I was derailed before I started listening to Brian Wilson’s work. I started my day at 3 a.m. with a nightmare involving a missed flight, missed connecting flight, and missed event. But I don’t know where I was going, or what I was missing—within the dream or in […]

bullet points

Sleep, check. Exercise, check. Time to let marbles/thoughts roll around in head (a.k.a. drive back from Round Rock), check. And look! here we are. Why is it such a fragile thing? The dread “other people” keep creeping in to my wondering. Surely “other people’s” habits can’t be THAT fragile -? The mementos /are/ helpful, but […]