Fake it until you make it

Give the Lord the benefit of believing that his hand is leading you, and accept the anxiety of feeling yourself in suspense and incomplete. –Pierre Teilhard de Chardin, from “Patient Trust“ I suspect I look a lot more patient on the outside than I feel on the inside. Some of this is actual life-learned wisdom: […]

Scarlett O’Hara

One of my core parenting strategies is remembering—reaching back in my mind to pull out how I felt and how the world felt to me when I was the age of the person I’m facing. With A’s struggles these past couple of weeks, I’ve been reaching both for the time I was newly launched and […]

An apple a day

I was rummaging around in the fridge for another dose of cream to go in another cup of coffee when the red orb registered through the foggy vegetable-tray: apple. I hadn’t eaten an apple yet. I fished one out of the bin and… Back up: One of the side effects of how we run the […]

Virginia’s room

Nearly a third of the sample identified attentional overload as a serious problem. […]Nearly two-thirds of the students showed disruption of concentration in response to a threat in the writing environment.  —Kellogg, The Psychology of Writing, p114, 115 I’m operating solo this week. There is only a 5% risk of interruptions. I can indulge my […]

Doing what you have to

Like my wife says, “You don’t get credit for doing what you’re supposed to.” — @clmazin on Twitter, 10 Nov 2016 I follow Mr. Mazin on Twitter because a friend showed me witty things he was writing. I am a sucker for witty and/or clever…though I’ve been considering dropping him from my reading now that […]

Vigils

In my bedroom, the night sounds like a seashell, sounds like the hush of blood in my ears. I’m awake, practicing the discipline of staying not-awake so that I might slide back into sleep. Some nights I feel the rigor of the discipline more than others. Tonight, you may have guessed, is one of them. […]

Single-tasking

When I first woke this morning, Saturday 12 November, probably around 6:30am, I thought: today my youngest child was born. I paused, because it took me a moment to sort my 4:30am contractions-memory back to where it belongs (to August). Having two kids within 15 months will blur those early memories, but not for long. […]

Four-poster dull torpor?

Maybe it’s the diffused light through the solid sky of clouds. No doubt that’s what pulled the grey pencil-leg trousers and the slate-blue wrap from my closet. Maybe I can point to the all-Leonard-Cohen channel the public radio station has become; “Hallelujah” can have that effect on a body. I’ve been drifting downhearted for a […]

Truly going the extra mile

You have heard that it was said, ‘An eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth.’ But I say to you, Do not resist an evildoer. […]If anyone forces you to go one mile, go also the second mile. –Mt 5:38, 41 NRSV I need to take better notes for my idea-garden. I […]

When you go there, they have to take you in

I got back from the gym around 9:30am, 9:45. Had a bowl of cereal. Started reading down rabbit trails on my phone. It’s almost 11am, and only now am I leaving the bunnies behind. But hey, it’s also grist for the mill, sparks on the wood-shavings in my brain. People who are in relationships where […]